It’s funny because we fall in love with the person who hurts us the most.
To that someone special, Let me start by saying, SORRY for all the heartaches I have caused you. I am so sorry for ruining almost all your nights because of my tantrums and my unwanted behaviors. Yes, unwanted. Because kahit ako, I don’t want to feel this way. My mind tells me not to but my heart is bursting into emotions na sometimes beyond my control. You know I LOVE YOU and there is no other man I would love as much as I LOVE YOU now. I don’t want to lose you. If it would happen, I’ll be almost nothing. Paired with the LOVE I feel is the PAIN, I’m hiding inside my heart. It’s the pain I had kept for so long. PAIN I inflicted on myself. I know upon reading this letter you’ll be shock to know that I have carried this kind of emotion for so many years. You have thought I AM OK. You thought I had forgotten the past. But once and for all, I want to be honest to you and to myself. I want to tell you, I WASN’T REALLY INTO MOVING ON. I tried, God knows, I tried. I don’t want to lose something precious even someone like you because I can’t forget everything. I want you to know, I LIED. I LIED because I DONT WANT YOU TO GET HURT. I lied about moving on. Every time I said I MOVED ON, the pain I feel, the pain I kept inside grows. You can imagine how I spent sleepless nights convincing myself “I’m ok, you need to be OK”. I cried so many nights. I had kept these feelings because I don’t want you to know that I had this burden inside my heart. I’m afraid of what will be you reaction. I LIED. Yes, I LIED. I want to tell you, it really wasn’t easy. It really wasn’t. Imagine convincing yourself, even knowing sarili mo lang pinapahirapan mo. I don’t have a healthy conscience. Oo, nakokonsensya ako every time I tell you I am OK. That I had forgotten EVERYTHING. I asked myself every time, “Why can’t I forget?!!! I had already forgiven YOU, but why can’t I forget??” I know ako ang may mali. I had my share of fault on this matter. I should have told you honestly, how I really felt. Even if I had kept this kind of emotions in my heart, It really didnt change what I felt for you.. I feel this would be the perfect time to tell you all these things, because PAGOD NA RIN AKONG MAGPRETEND. I had appreciated all the things you have done for me. You never failed to show me na pinagsisihan mo ang mga ginawa mo before. You tried to regain my trust. You did things that enable me to forget and forgive the things you have done. I was never felt unloved by you. In fact I felt so loved by you. Ako talaga ang may mali. Ako ang hindi makamove on. Ako ang hindi makamove on from the past. Hindi ko ginusto to. WHO WOULD WANT TO INFLICT PAIN ON HERSELF WHEN SHE CAN FEEL GENUINE HAPPINESS OF LOVING?? I want to move on. I know I have caused YOU so much pain. I know I shouldn’t be like this. Everybody deserves a second chance. I know I should be happy because I have you in spite and despite of it all. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU. I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry. God knows, I struggled to forget. But this is a clear evidence that kulang pa, kulang pa din. I still didn’t forget it. Kung nakalimutan ko na I shouldn’t be this paranoid. I shouldn’t have let it go but it is so hard for me to do so. There is only one thing, I’m holding on to. I LOVE YOU and I’m very much willing to inflict pain on my heart just to see you happy. That is how ME loves YOU. That it even comes to a point of lying to herself hat she moved on where in fact she didn’t. She lied because she doesn’t want hi to know how she felt. Yes I am afraid baka you will leave me after knowing all these things. I won’t judge you sa kung ano man ang magiging reaction mo. I’ll be very willing to experience all the consequences of my actions, the consequences of my white lies. Before anything else, I want you to remember always,I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and you are always HERE. I realized, my friends let me realize that LOVE IS SOMETIMES TOUGH. YOU CANNOT GIVE LOVE TO TOHERS, IF YOU CAN’T LOVE YOURSELF. YOU CAN’T TRUST SOMEONE, IF YOU CAN’T TRUST YOURSELF. AND THIRD, YOU CANNOT MOVE ON AND BE HAPPY IF YOUR TRAPPED IN YOUR PAST. THERE ARE LOTS OF REASONS TO BE HAPPY IN A RELATIONSHIP. YOU HAVE YOUR BESTFRIEND AND YOUR LOVER, ROLLED INTO ONE. I want to love without thinking about pain. From the one who is so in love with you, ME.
To that someone special,
Let me start by saying, SORRY for all the heartaches I have caused you. I am so sorry for ruining almost all your nights because of my tantrums and my unwanted behaviors. Yes, unwanted. Because kahit ako, I don’t want to feel this way. My mind tells me not to but my heart is bursting into emotions na sometimes beyond my control. You know I LOVE YOU and there is no other man I would love as much as I LOVE YOU now. I don’t want to lose you. If it would happen, I’ll be almost nothing. Paired with the LOVE I feel is the PAIN, I’m hiding inside my heart. It’s the pain I had kept for so long. PAIN I inflicted on myself. I know upon reading this letter you’ll be shock to know that I have carried this kind of emotion for so many years. You have thought I AM OK. You thought I had forgotten the past. But once and for all, I want to be honest to you and to myself. I want to tell you, I WASN’T REALLY INTO MOVING ON. I tried, God knows, I tried. I don’t want to lose something precious even someone like you because I can’t forget everything. I want you to know, I LIED. I LIED because I DONT WANT YOU TO GET HURT. I lied about moving on. Every time I said I MOVED ON, the pain I feel, the pain I kept inside grows. You can imagine how I spent sleepless nights convincing myself “I’m ok, you need to be OK”. I cried so many nights. I had kept these feelings because I don’t want you to know that I had this burden inside my heart. I’m afraid of what will be you reaction. I LIED. Yes, I LIED. I want to tell you, it really wasn’t easy. It really wasn’t. Imagine convincing yourself, even knowing sarili mo lang pinapahirapan mo. I don’t have a healthy conscience. Oo, nakokonsensya ako every time I tell you I am OK. That I had forgotten EVERYTHING. I asked myself every time, “Why can’t I forget?!!! I had already forgiven YOU, but why can’t I forget??” I know ako ang may mali. I had my share of fault on this matter. I should have told you honestly, how I really felt. Even if I had kept this kind of emotions in my heart, It really didnt change what I felt for you.. I feel this would be the perfect time to tell you all these things, because PAGOD NA RIN AKONG MAGPRETEND.
I had appreciated all the things you have done for me. You never failed to show me na pinagsisihan mo ang mga ginawa mo before. You tried to regain my trust. You did things that enable me to forget and forgive the things you have done. I was never felt unloved by you. In fact I felt so loved by you. Ako talaga ang may mali. Ako ang hindi makamove on. Ako ang hindi makamove on from the past. Hindi ko ginusto to. WHO WOULD WANT TO INFLICT PAIN ON HERSELF WHEN SHE CAN FEEL GENUINE HAPPINESS OF LOVING?? I want to move on. I know I have caused YOU so much pain. I know I shouldn’t be like this. Everybody deserves a second chance. I know I should be happy because I have you in spite and despite of it all. I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU. I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry. God knows, I struggled to forget. But this is a clear evidence that kulang pa, kulang pa din. I still didn’t forget it. Kung nakalimutan ko na I shouldn’t be this paranoid. I shouldn’t have let it go but it is so hard for me to do so. There is only one thing, I’m holding on to. I LOVE YOU and I’m very much willing to inflict pain on my heart just to see you happy. That is how ME loves YOU. That it even comes to a point of lying to herself hat she moved on where in fact she didn’t. She lied because she doesn’t want hi to know how she felt. Yes I am afraid baka you will leave me after knowing all these things. I won’t judge you sa kung ano man ang magiging reaction mo. I’ll be very willing to experience all the consequences of my actions, the consequences of my white lies. Before anything else, I want you to remember always,I LOVE YOU SO MUCH and you are always HERE. I realized, my friends let me realize that LOVE IS SOMETIMES TOUGH. YOU CANNOT GIVE LOVE TO TOHERS, IF YOU CAN’T LOVE YOURSELF. YOU CAN’T TRUST SOMEONE, IF YOU CAN’T TRUST YOURSELF. AND THIRD, YOU CANNOT MOVE ON AND BE HAPPY IF YOUR TRAPPED IN YOUR PAST. THERE ARE LOTS OF REASONS TO BE HAPPY IN A RELATIONSHIP. YOU HAVE YOUR BESTFRIEND AND YOUR LOVER, ROLLED INTO ONE.
I want to love without thinking about pain. Can I have this wish? Will you give me this chance to prove myself to you?
From the one who is so in love with you,
ME.
Minerva McGonagall is one badass mofo and is basically perfection in witch form.
Everybody gets against a wall because when McGonagall steps up shits about to go down:
Shit got real:
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“AND - oh, nevermind”
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